He is the potter.

You may think that I'm just fine. You may think, "How could anything even be out of line?". Well, even though I've got the lines rehearsed....a picture only paints a thousand words.

Things aren't always what they seem. Don't you realize you're only seeing part of me? There's more to me than you could ever know. I'm incomplete... and I'm undone. But I suppose, like everyone, there is so much more that's going on behind the scenes.

God, THANK YOU for making my life so beautiful. Mercy reached in and saved me. You took a woman so repulsing and turned me into something... breath-taking. I am so unworthy... and OH-SO GREATFUL.

You are all I need, Jesus.

Something Stinks?

Oh my.. I've been SO busy lately. Tonight was the first night in probably 2 weeks that I actually turned on the TV and watched it... for an hour! I know that sounds... well.... lame. But seriously, I feel like I haven't even been home long enough to turn on the TV, much less watch an entire show... Or write a blog... or Shower!? Seriously, it's been 6 days.



My laundry has managed to pile itself up (I hate when it does that.. rude.). Everything has Baxter hair on it. Speaking of HAIR, my hair is SO dry... I'm seriously gonna have to SLEEP with conditioner on it or something (don't know if that will help or hurt? But I do know I will wake up one hott, crispy mess.). OH.. and my car, considering the fact that I've practically LIVED in it for a week, is TOE UP! I'm TOTALLY getting up BRIGHT and EARLY (like noon..) and washing my car. That will make me feel a little better.



OH! On a good note (finally) I'm TOTALLY getting my hair done tomorrow! I'm gonna have to cut like, an inch or so off... but I'm staying blonde-...ish. AND Matt comes home tomorrow.. He's been at work for 2 shifts in a row.. and I'm cranky tonight because I miss him. Tomorrow (after my hair appointment, ofcourse) we are going to Orange Beach to meet up with lots of Matt's FAMILY... and FRIENDS... for FOOD... and FELLOWSHIP... and F...-ARTS? It should be a ... FUN FAMILY FUNCTION. On FRIDAY.



OH.. I gave blood on Tuesday... and something went wrong?... check it out...:.

Stupid Girl Scouts....

So... today... was... a day...?

I slept until 10:00am..... then I got up and ate cereal... then an hour later... ate lunch... then an hour later, I ate an entire roll of THIN MINTS (all the while... I'm watching these stupid soap operas cause that's all that's on with our stupid digital converter box...). Then, at 2:00pm, I got out of my PJ's and into the shower... where I brushed my teeth for the first time of the day.

I drove to work for one client (who, Praise God, put BIG smiles on my face)... then drove home while talking to Nikki (one of my FAVORITE people in the whole wide world... who ALSO put a BIG smile on my face...!).

Feeling guilty for wasting 93% of my day... I ate grapes for dinner, and now I'm going to bed.

Goodnight. :)

I've always believed that God can do anything. But yesterday, my faith in God was completely revolutionized.

My friend Emily is 15 years old. A few weeks ago she was diagnosed with Hodgkin's disease — also known as Hodgkin's lymphoma. It's a cancer of the lymphatic system, which is part of your immune system. Three Sundays ago, we prayed for her as a church - believing that God could heal her. I prayed for her these last few weeks... truely believing that He could follow through with what His word says.

Yesterday, around lunch, Emily went in for a routine CT... just to see if the cancer had spread more, or if it maybe shrunk a little. The cancer is gone... COMPLETELY... GONE. Praise you, Jesus.

You would think my imediate reaction would be pure excitement (I thought it would be too.). But... athough I was truely thrilled for Emily... my initial reflection of that moment was, "Why am I so amazed? I knew God could do this... I knew it." And now He did what I knew He could do, and I'm standing in disbelief.

I do understand that the Christian walk is a walk of continuous growth. We all fall short of His glory, and yesterday was one of those many days for me. God showed me that believing that He can do something is great... but believing that He will do what you know He can do is what we're called to do.

James 5:15 says, "And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up...". I choose to believe the Bible, and when the Bible says it will... I believe it will. Here, it says He WILL make the sick person well.. He WILL raise him up... and I choose to believe that.

"God, Thank you so much for healing Emily. She is a precious girl that is going to do great things for you kingdom... I just know it! Thank you for teaching me some things about myself though the life experiences of others. I love you.. and believe that you will do what your word says you will do... today, tomorrow, and forever."

Yesterday, we had this FABULOUS surprise birthday party for my friend, Lindsay! Her 23rd birthday is this Saturday, but her and Jon were heading out of town and won't be back till next week.

During all of the hustle and bustle, I took a sec to look around... soaking up everything about the night. It blessed me so much to see such a fantastic group of people there to do nothing more than love on Lindsay. Her smile made the last 12 years of our friendship so rewarding!

I can see her passion for God growing every single day! She is becomming more and more aware of how real God is and just how much He is crazy about her. :) How could He not be? He made her to be absolutely fascinating! Before she started wholeheartedly running after God, she was sweet, gorgeous, and just flat out hilarious! But with Him... ohh... with Him she's all that and more! She's compassionate, loving, forgiving... and even more beautiful than she was before!

Lindsay - She is my best friend. I thank God every single day for what He is doing and what He is going to do in her. It's Great!!!

Taking every step (or lack therof) in obedience.

"my sunshine"

The last month or so... I've had this indescribable feeling inside of me. Today... this emotion became expressible.

We are just waiting on the Lord with this insane peace? It's like... when you ask your parents for something.. and you know they have it stored up for you... but you don't know exactly what it is.. or if they'll give it to you for your birthday, or Christmas... or an anniversary... You just know it's good... and your excited.

We just know that God has a really cool plan for Matt and I... but every time we take a step or two in what we think is the right direction, that door gets slammed. Which is exactly what we pray for... but it's just a really bazarre feeling to entirely trust God with our future, knowing that we have all these "plans" for ourselves... what we want... when we want it... why we want it. But as bad as we want these things.. that desire doesn't even compare to our desire for God's perfect blueprint for our lives.

Waiting is painful for me sometimes... but I will worship while I wait.

While I'm waiting...

I am waiting.
Waiting on You Lord.
And I am hopeful.
I'm waiting on you Lord.
Though it is painful.
But paitentially I will wait.

I will move ahead bold and confident.
Taking every step in obedience.

<chorus>:
While I'm waiting,
I will serve you.
While I'm waiting,
I will worship.
While I'm waiting,
I will not fade.
I'll be running the race,
Even while I wait.

I'm waiting,
I'm waiting on you Lord.
And I am peaceful.
I'm waiting on you Lord.
Though it's not easy.
But faithfully I will wait.
YES I WILL WAIT.

And I will move ahead bold and confident.
Taking every step in obedience.

<chorus>

I will move ahead bold and confident.
I will be taking EVERY step in obedience!!

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I will serve you while I'm waiting.
I will worship while I'm waiting.
I will serve you while I'm waiting.
I will worship while I'm waiting.
I will serve you while I'm waiting.
I will worship I'm waiting on you, Lord!

This has been the 'story of my life' this past year.. or two? I am so greatful for the life God has blessed me with. Seriously, my mom and sister are my heart. I have the most amazing friends and family... truely. Our church has blessed me in more ways than I can put into words. Matt and I are so happy with our place of employment... and ahhh .... Matt. He's mylifesaver. He's my husband.... and he's very very good at that. :) I'm just so blessed... what more could a girl want?!

Actually.. My heart wants babies. I'm only 23, and I know that I could wait like 10 more years to start having kids... but I don't wanna. I'm ready to grow our little family.

I have always told Matt that when we get a bigger house, I can get a bigger belly. And since I've said that for 3 years.. I'm sort of stuck on it to be honest. The only problem... we can't get out from under this house. We bought it right after Ivan and owe more on it than it's worth.

A little less than a month ago, Matt was at work, and I was praying. I have always wanted God's will for my life... but that time it was different. I told God that I truely wanted what He had planned for Matt and I.... and if that meant staying in our little townhouse for the next 20 years and having a family here... that's what I wanted. It was the first time that I was ever able to say that and mean it from the bottom of my heart.

The next day Matt and I were on our way to Saraland to see his family, and I got a phone call from my sweet Lindsay. She said, "So, I think I found a buyer for your house.....". What?! I didn't even know what to think. Our house wasn't even on the market to sell.

Long story short, these 'snow-birds' from Virginia (?) saw the house 2 doors down and loved it, but the owners took it off the market before they could buy it. Their realtor overheard Lindsay talking to my Momma about us eventually trying to sell or rent our house, called her buyers, and they were very interested in seeing our house!?

So we sent them pictures of the house, and heard that they loved it and wanted to see it in person. They are coming to Pensacola in 2 weeks. It's between our house and one other one. Man, am I hoping they like ours. :)

It's just hard sometimes not knowing what God's will is, but knowing you want it. I know that with all this excitment, God's not caught off-guard. He knows exactly what is going on, even when I don't get it. He is truely in control, and knowing that gives me a peace like no other. I'm just waiting. Waiting on God's timing. Waiting on His permission to make a move. Until I hear a clear word from the Lord... I will be right here, in our beautiful little town house... with my wonderful boys (Matt and Baxter.. ha.)... just wondering when it will be our time to start a family of our own.

Man.. my heart is there... and the Bible promises that God sees the desires of our hearts.

Thank you God for having my best in mind.