God,
I am not worthy of you. Of your love. Of your forgivness. Don't ever let me forget that. I, in myself, am not worthy of anything that's of you... or from you.

Thank you for being so gracious as to give yourself to the undeserving.... even when we foolishly think we are deserving. You don't have to do what you do for me, and you do it anyway. You do it because you love me. You want me. You are jealous for me. You want my full attention. You desire for my heart to run towards nothing less than your Secret Place. Help me to find that in you... Help me to desire truth in my inmost being. I don't want to look like a Christian... I don't want to just read Your Word.... I want to walk in Your Word and speak the words of Jesus. When I speak, I don't want people to hear me - let them hear you, God.

Help me to step aside and let you shine, Lord. Your heart is so much bigger than mine (if gargantuouser was a word... I'd use it to describe your heart in comparison to mine..... and it still wouldn't suffice.) I want to love like Jesus. I want to be His hands and be His feet. Help me to humble myself enough to make it about You and not me. I am not "better than thou"... and I don't want to ever convince myself that I am... or ever could be. Please, just help me to show your love to the people around me in a real, believable, and tangible way. Give me the strength to be a fisher of men for you, God.

I almost prayed for confidence to be bold enough to share you with people.... and you said, "If your experience with me has been real, you won't need confidence. You shouldn't be able to contain me in your little heart... it has to overflow. Just open your mouth and let me do the talking. I've got this... thanks for the vessel."